12. syyskuuta 2011

Happy is what happens when your dreams come true.


My blog is 1 year old today!

My 1st blog banner on September 12th, 2010.
I guess I could do a recap about everything I have experienced during the year but I know that the entry would end up being waaaaaay too long, and well, that specific period of time changed me so ridiculously much that I just can't put it into words. Despite the fact that the year contained the worst days of my life, it still was the best one I've ever had. That's all. So, if you wish to know more about my sometimes more and sometimes less interesting days, you're more than welcome to read through my older blog entries, hehe. I also decided to change my layout back to one of the old ones because autumn, my favourite season, is here and I guess my eyes want to celebrate it by yearning to see some warmer and darker shades of colors once again.

Our balcony at night.
Anyway, before the previous realization I was indeed going to write a blog entry and I'm going to finish it now:

I was sleepless last night and my mind was wandering like crazy. I just sat in front of my laptop and went through my Facebook-photos. It felt like one part of my brains was recalling the past, the other part was dreaming about the future and then my soul was stuck somewhere in between them. At one point, don't remember when, two questions popped into my mind:

What has been the happiest moment of my life so far?
Will that memory be my guide for the future?

I knew the answers right away but I started to wonder the reasons behind my choice. Was it just the obvious one or is there something more in it? However, this was the first thing I thought so I'm going to stick with it. Here we go then...

Meet & greet, May 14th, 2011.
My choice for the happiest moment of my life so far is the meet & greet that happened after the last show of the Finnish production of Wicked on May 14th, 2011. It was like the final chapter of the story that started last year, on September 20th, and I call it "Obsessed - The Life and Times of the Wicked Fangirl" (yes, that's how original I am, haha). In a way, I see it also as a prequel for some new fairytales because in that moment all of the doors to the future were wide open. I didn't know what was going to happen next but I knew that if I would cherish that memory in my heart from that day on, I would never get lost. 

I guess all of us have had, or will have, that moment when you've accomplished something so meaningful to you that it makes you feel humble and even a little bit suspicious.

Did I really do that? How is that even possible?
Do I deserve to be this proud of myself?

All of those questions were circling in my head as I was watching the huge group of Wicked-fans around Maria (Elphaba) and Anna-Maija (Glinda), all smiling, laughing and just being happy. Most of the time I stayed a little bit in the back because I had already met the girls several times before so I had plenty of time thinking about Wicked and the 4,5 months I had spend running the fanclub. It was a mixture of choices, opportunities, advices, hard work and having faith in myself that had led me to this very moment. I knew though that I never could have accomplished any of it without the people that were standing around me. I had shared my dream with them and I was relieved that it had turned out to be a good idea: I had brought even a little bit more happiness and joy to this world.

Just before the end of the meet & greet I decided to take a photo with Anna-Maija and Maria. I was blushing so badly when the girls were congratulating and thanking me for everything that I had done for making this musical even more a special and unique experience for both the crew and the fans. I didn't know what to answer so I just laughed while we took the picture. After that all I could say was 'thank you'. I would have wanted to say so much more, sentences filled with beautiful words, but my mind was totally blank. Luckily, I had already explained them how much Wicked means to me in forms of letters and I could see in their eyes and smiles that they knew what I was going through, and I felt a silent understanding between us.

Soon it was time to leave the auditorium that I had got to know so well during the 16 evenings I had spend there escaping the reality into the magical land of Oz. The hall was dark and empty, and the only sound was our steps echoing on the walls. It felt like even the theatre was saying a farewell to one of its most beloved productions. The few of us fans that were still left greeted the lobby workers and stepped outside from the glass doors. The air was chilly around us as we were hugging each other and making promises of seeing again someday. I realised that even though the musical itself was over, the people were still right there, sharing the same dream with me.

It wasn't the end. It was the beginning.

Wicked would live in us forever
and I could not have been happier.

p.s. The screenshots are from this video.

4 kommenttia:

  1. Mä en vain käsitä miten sä onnistut aina saamaan mun silmät vuotamaan näillä bloggauksillasi... :'') <3

    VastaaPoista
  2. No voi awwwww! Kaipa ylitunteellisten tekstien kirjoittaminen on sitten se mun talentti, en tiedä... :D

    VastaaPoista
  3. Tunnustettakoon että aloin oikeasti itkeä luettuani tämän.

    VastaaPoista
  4. Voi teitä ihania <3
    No joo, kyllä itsekin pariin otteeseen hieman herkistelin tätä kirjoittaessani, kun muistotulva oli paikoin sen verran voimakas.
    On vain välillä niin ikävä... </3

    VastaaPoista